Took Simon to the vet again today, wanted to know what the vet thought, what if any treatment we should try. I decided to euthanize her tomorrow, with the vets guidance, but I'm sitting here questioning if I should have tried to do a blood transfusion to at least try that and see if it helped. I'll never know and I'm going to regret my decision, but I feel like its already made. I feel like maybe I'm grasping at straws. Loss is so difficult for me. I'm praying for a sign between now and tomorrow @4:30 so that I know it's the right decision. I wish I had parents to call.This is the hardest thing I have done since I got sober like Steve said, I've had drama, but no trauma.
